Love the Ghost of the Past – Venus Retrograde in Scorpio 2018

On October 5, 2018, Venus retrograde 10 degrees in Scorpio then continues into Libra till November 16, 2018. This article gives insight into what Venus in Scorpio means and how you can use this period of your life effectively. For the most part, Venus already went through most of her retrograde period, but this article will help you review what needs to be looked at.

A time to confront the truth about what you love.

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Jealousy and grief from past relationships involving people or ideas while Venus is in retrograde are at the forefront of our emotional/mental lives. What was traumatizing in past relationships must be revisited to process and it will not be dismissed this time. Surrender to your fear and let the boundaries dissolve so change can follow suit. How you see people and/or ideas you love and how you relate to them have a chance to be reviewed and processed with another special person. Don’t take this time lightly, it is a blessing in disguise. Situations with lovers, women, or close relationships can be traumatizing (again) if you react as you did in the past. Instead, confront them and reveal the ‘ugly truth’ as Scorpio learns to do as the energy evolves. While Venus is in Scorpio be honest about your wounds and be comfortable with being vulnerable to the ones you love and who can receive you well. While Venus is retrograde in Scorpio, we can look to the myth of Persephone being forced to live with Hades just to become Queen of the Underworld. And like her, we must master what had mastered us in the past by surrendering to the process of death and rebirth. Find innovative ways to approach a problem. Perhaps taking an online class on effective communication,  work with groups of people on a project, or help those who are in need. Take action that involves others it’ll help release old connections to the past that is hindering you.

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My Experience

My Scorpio is in the fourth house. The fourth house gives a glimpse of the individual’s emotional nature as well as the physical home. During Venus retrograde, I’ve been focused on gardening at home and how it’s been an issue for me.  I go back and forth on destroying and rebuilding it and the garden shows my indecisive nature at best. Venus retrograde through Scorpio in the fourth house shows there’s an opportunity to review the feelings I have about my gardening experience. I feel blocked, frustrated, angry, pathetic, excited, happy, thankful, and exhausted about my gardening experience. Plenty of times I wanted to give up and disappear. I even killed my plants purposely because of lack of motivation at times. The consistent heavy rain, mosquitoes, and overly saturated soils have been trying every nerve I have. Obviously, there’s a lot happening at home and it lives up to my Scorpio fourth house expression.

What it’s now. 

What it was at its prime. 

Nevertheless, with Venus retrograde, I am forced to review what I love most about my home life. I must see it for what it is, accept it, dissolve ‘my should be attitude’, and change my perspective during this retrograde.

Currently, Venus is retrograde in Libra and will be till she goes direct on November 16, 2018.

May we take it easy and not fall back on temptations of repeating the past. Be strong! And enjoy the lessons to come while Venus is in her sign, Libra!

Be Present: My Walk with Saturn ll

Breathe 7 seconds in,  breathe 7 seconds out. Be present, be present, you are in the present moment. What do you see? On Thursday, September 6, 2018, Saturn stationed direct meaning that we are to put our thoughts together and build the steps to the Empire. For me, it has been a struggle because of psychological reasons. In this article, I  will share with you a bit about my struggle while I work with Saturn.

I landed in Texas within mind to recover but little did I know there was a lesson in stored- to grow where I am planted. Plenty of friends reassure that I am where I supposed to be, but for some reason, I still struggle to accept this.

Throughout the day I feel plenty of emotions.  Early morning I feel good, mid-day I feel ambivalent about the good, then later, I question If I am refusing the very thing I desire most, freedom. This cycle has been going on for a few months and maybe as Saturn is moving forward you are having these issues too.

We must keep moving and accept the uncertainty.

With Saturn in Capricorn, we are determined to put the pieces together. We must see ourselves for who we are in the present moment and no matter what keep building character.

Mars moving into Aquarius (again) on September 11, 2018, reflects how to use our drive to put ourselves together. Accept the instinct to push through with innovation and keep the collective in mind. In this article, I share my perspective on Mars in Aquarius. >> Reflections of Mars Retrograde <<

What I am building is my way of having access to organic food and feel secure in my need for occult knowledge. Balancing the two has been a challenge because of my outdated views. I’ve learned to accept this as a lesson, yet I have trouble seeing the long-term goal.

I envision my garden having rich brown soil, mulch for days, beautiful flowers that are perfectly designed. I see myself more involved with Astrology, actively working with my intuition, and accepting who I am each moment.  As I walk with Saturn and work with each lesson, this Gemini is having trouble staying put due to anxiety for the outcome. I want to fly to the end of the race so that I know what it feels like to say, “Ah, I did it!”. However, I know that isn’t the point and doesn’t please Saturn. So what now?

For you and I…
The point is to be present. You won’t have the answers to the questions you inquire right away and you definitely won’t reach the end goal after a few seconds of thinking of it. Smell the Earth for what season it is in. Enjoy the flowers, see the bees, work hard, and have trust that your daily grind will pay off. You have your vision and that is good. See your vision as a seed that must be planted to grow. Plant each seed and continue to nurture. Some may germinate and perform some may fertilize the Earth. Either way, you will have results and it will prompt you to take further action. Trust and protect the vision. It is perfect timing to start now.

 

My Walk with Saturn

For a year I’ve been contemplating on the archetype Saturn. Typically, when I ask other astrology fan’s opinion of Saturn, many say it is scary and best avoided if possible. They imagine Saturn to be dry and cold to the touch, with dark cold eyes, and an elongated body and no heart. But, in my opinion, he’s the best out of all of the planets even if he’s hard to look at.

In this article, I will address Saturn as if he ’s a person because it’s easy for me to refer to him as such, but keep in mind, that Saturn is not a person and not only referred to as a planet. Saturn is an omnipotent energy that has plenty of associations in our lives through the lens of astrology. Saturn is the Archetype of hard work, diligence, method and precision, routine, karma, and death. Through the birth chart, you can see how the energy of Saturn affects our lives and physical body.

With diligence and hard work, there’s always a promise from Saturn. With every action, there is a reaction, karma. Walking with Saturn has not been easy for me. Often I feel dark, misunderstood, and stuck in a mundane routine.

He has forced me to learn how to work with what I have and it’s been humbling. The rose-colored glasses, my sparkly vision, the feeling of I can do anything at any time, has been ripped from my eyes and heart and now I am forced to see reality. It’s as if Saturn is enjoying my struggle with the daily grind. Often I have felt as though I was not making process, but he was (and still is) molding me in his image. He is showing me that I must work with the material in order to bring down the vision.

I’ve noticed how much I am limited and how I can no longer play my way out of responsibility as I have done in the past. As my close friend said best, “No more electric slide with Saturn.” The glasses have been ripped off and  I am seeing the limits EVERYWHERE. Money, friends, food, land, soil and air quality, water, time, everything! Have I been living in a world of imagination for this long? Or has time changed?

Realizing what  I need to do to reach my empire has been discouraging. My naive mind thought it should be reached in a day or at least a year. I see it so clearly but that seems to not be enough. Realistically speaking, I will more than likely achieve my ultimate goal many years from now.

For you to know…

While Saturn is in retrograde in Capricorn, we are to remember our inner authority, our own empire, what we are here to bring to Earth even while in a state of depression. We must learn to see depression as sacred. It is special and must be respected for it’s a part of the process of character cultivation, the process of liberation. Liberation from past restrictions and to form new boundaries to make the vision of the empire real. With freedom there are limits. One is not without the other unless you wish for death. As a wise friend from work appropriately stated, “With choice there’s freedom. The more choices you have, the more freedom is attainable.”

To choose to work towards your vision every day by giving at least a few minutes of your time to anchor down your empire is HUGE. Saturn can’t help but reward hard work. Wishing for things to come magically without any due diligence will not please Saturn or give merit to the empire. This is an introspective thought that benefits me, but you get the idea. As a human, you only get what you want by working with what you have.

So far this is what I’ve learned while walking with Saturn…

Reflections of Mars Retrograde 2018

I believe in Humanity. It is time that I put my sword down for my own good.

“I am free to make choices. I am no longer trapped in my anger. I am free to share my energy constructively with friends, family, and my chosen community. I must let down my sword and only use it for the higher good. I am protected, and here to protect the future. This is what I hear when I think of Mars in Aquarius.

From June 26th to August 27th, Mars will be retrograde in Aquarius. That gives us a chance to acknowledge and uncover our suppressed anger so that we can rebel and protect newfound knowledge. If we fail to recognize this anger within ourselves, then we will project it into our reality

Mars is the planet of energy, fire, protection, and war. Nothing goes past Mars without being dissected and/or burned. With this power, Mars holds the door for new life to follow. And with Mars in Aquarius we can expect this inner fire to rise unexpectedly.

With Mars retrograde, it is best to avoid venturing into new territory until he stations direct. This is the time to review past steps, and see if moving forward is wise. It is also important to note that this is contrary to Mars’ natural expression, so staying still will prove to be challenging. Mars only knows how to move forward and take action. There’s help needed ,and this is where Saturn’s energy is valuable.

With Saturn moving retrograde in Capricorn (his own sign) he seems to not be moving at all. It’s like he is taking his sweet time, and hammering  each lesson in our bones with great care and intention.

Aquarius, the bringer of new knowledge and Saturn being co-ruler  gives Aquarius the qualities that’ll help us stick to our ‘farfetched’ mission. With Saturn retrograde in Capricorn, he’s teaching the importance of inner authority and recognizing that we are the authority of our own lives. Joined with Mars retrograde, Saturn is helping us reassess our authority and teaching us to use our sword wisely.

May you use your words kindly and your energy constructively.

Happy Mars and Saturn retrograde!

 

You are the Star!  | Total Lunar Eclipse in Leo

 

Find your light because on January 31, 2018, at 5:28 am PST, January 31, 2018, at 1:28 pm UT, and February 1, 2018 at 12:29 am AEST the Moon will be eclipsed in the magnificent sign of Leo!

Leo is the heart of the zodiac. If you look at your natal Leo house placement, the house represents where you like to play and what brings you to life. When awakened, this certain aspect of your chart is where your talents lie. There’s a Soul desire to develop these talents. Doing so would benefit your audience, and they would appreciate you for owning and sharing them. Leo is the creative fire that values courage, spontaneity, and the display of skills and talents. When eyes are on Leo, this energy cannot help but perform. With this energy being the focal point at the moment, we are to look to ourselves to see how we value the creative fire as the Leo archetype.

With Moon being in the sign of Leo, we are asked to be courageous in our pursuit and allow closure of the past to take place.

Meaning of the phase of the Moon
The total lunar eclipse represents that the emotional cycle that began August 7, 2017 (Lunar eclipse in Aquarius), is now complete so that the new will arrive and be owned. Whatever took place during the month of August will finally come to an end so let it happen! New lessons are ready to reign and a sense of wholeness is ready to bless you. Perhaps answers, some movement, or a change of heart will happen around this time.You are now able to see a new light and perform in a way that is more in alignment with who you are within. The light can be seen as hope or inspiration and if held on to, it can be yours to keep for awhile!

The Moon phase that will transpire is very special because it is a Super Blue Blood Moon! The last time this has taken place was 150 years ago and we are lucky enough to witness this phenomenon, so don’t forget to take a peek at the Moon. (keep in mind that it may not be noticeable to the naked eye. The Moon is considered Super because it will be closer than usual and blue because it is the second full moon of this month. It is a Blood Moon because it is eclipsed by the Sun.  

About the Super Blood Blue Moon

When the eclipse happens for you

 

 

Okay, so let’s get into the aspects

Aspects
The aspects that I will focus on is the Moon in Leo trine Mars in Sagittarius, conjuncts North Node in Leo,  and opposition to Venus and Sun in Aquarius.

 

Celebrate the Old, Aim for the New | Moon in Leo trine Mars in Sagittarius
With the Moon trine Mars in Sagittarius, you can expect that your energy will be most vitally utilized if you focus on moving on and exploring new horizons. Opportunities will arrive while on your path and it’s up to you to say yes to them. With it being a trine, you can expect opportunities to fall onto your lap instead of you having to actively work for them. I see this as a way of karma paying you for all of the work you have done in the past, so take it on and explore the depths!

I’m really happy to see this trine aspect because this gives reassurance that it’s okay to move forward and to know that there’s more to learn and share with others. Sagittarius has an energy of passion and determination. It’s ready to be charmed by new experiences and learn a new thing or two. So we can expect to have a lot of fun this coming month while Mars is in Sagittarius. Especially if you are open to learning new things from other people.

 

Materialize Emotional Desires | Moon conjunct North Node
With the Moon conjunct the North Node, our emotional nature is all about materializing on our creative expression and finding the hope within us that makes us unique. We are focused on our creative abilities, talents, and the need to be seen for what we can create. (this can be good or bad; you have the choice to create peace or wreak havoc)  This will be a great time to reflect on what is it that you are great at and see if you are working on developing those talents. Also, because of the eclipse, it is now time to recognize how you used to express yourself and how you have decided to use your time. Celebrate how you were and then look to where you are headed. The mantra is simple: create, create, create and be surrounded by warmth and love.


Who am I with you? | Moon in Leo opposes Venus in Aquarius
Moon placed in opposition to Venus in Aquarius makes me a little nervous. This indicates that we may be experiencing some confusion on how we fit into our relationships. With this new light shining there’s some readjusting that must take place within relationships and it can be a little uncomfortable if not done gently. Allow the truth to reveal itself and honest communication to be favored. Either way, the truth must come out so it can have a life of its own and benefit both parties. The energy of Aquarius that Venus is transiting through is all about individuality within relationships. It would be wise to acknowledge this part of the relationship and view the relationship as a way of serving the other while having a sense of Self.

 

Ruler of the Sign | The Sun
The ruler of Leo is the Sun. With it being conjunct with Venus in the Sign of Aquarius, we can expect to review the groups of friends and organizations we associate with and how we express our love to them or vice-versa. The Sun is considered to be in its detriment when in Aquarius. Our focus is on the other instead of ourselves. Personally, I do not find this a detriment, but I can see how it can become a problem. With the Sun being conjunct with Venus, love and relationships are also up for review. There will be special interest in what each individual has to offer to the other. However, individuality amongst the group is very important! Everyone must “show up” and be great on their own so that the group or organization benefits greatly.

 

How this Moon Relate to the Last
On January 16/17, 2018, the Moon was new in Capricorn. This was so that we would emotionally devote ourselves to our chosen path no matter how daunting it may have seemed. We were required to show initiative and to keep climbing the mountain of goals and sacrifice the superficial things that weren’t helping us reach our greater achievements. Now that the Moon is considered Super Blue Blood in Leo, we are to find hope within ourselves. This hope will help us on our journey while closure of the old is simultaneously happening.

 

 

3 Points to take while being the Star of the Show

  • Acknowledge your talents and skills.
  • Review who you associate with and if you are gaining what you desire out of those connections.
  • Meditate with the color yellow or citrine crystal to allow hope and inspiration to increase in your life.

 

 

 

Reform Boundaries | New Moon in Capricorn

Prepare for the breakdown and revelation about your inner nature, because on January 16, 2018, at 6:18 pm (PST), January 17, 2018, 2:19 am (UT) and January 17, 2018, at 1:18 pm (AEST) the Moon will be New, located at 26 degrees in Capricorn.

We are asked to descend to our depths and connect to our primal intelligence to understand our source of authority.


With the Moon being in the somber sign, Capricorn it signals that this is a time to be realistic about who we are and what our environment provides. We have our outstanding new years resolutions, (which have hopefully been a success so far), but with all of this action in Capricorn, we are required to be realistic with ourselves. We must understand where our motives come from, and what we are truly capable of one step at a time.  

Capricorn is the sign of the initiate in esoteric astrology, and the initiate is required to go to their depths alone for no one can do it for them. Plus, who can do it better than the Capricorn archetype? Whom you can become with practice. The energy of Capricorn understands the nuance of the material world and how to organize and use it to its utmost efficiency pertaining to the inner vision. It would be wise for us to do the same with our new year’s resolutions.

So how do we do that? How do we utilize our inner resources and environment so that we are successfully attain our vision? Well, that’s where the phase of the Moon comes in to play.

Meaning of the Phase of the Moon
With the Moon being New or in its dark phase, we are required to go within and understand our inner resources. We are to understand that our emotions are real, and our path demands devotion no matter what it takes. Set an intention to walk the honest path, and confront your emotional ghosts (repressed emotions). Practice this so that you are able to see them, understand them, and learn to love them for what they are in that order. With pure action, they will naturally give you back your decisive authority, because they are a part of you and want to be reintegrated with you!


“Capricorn, the gate through which we finally pass we no longer identify ourselves with the form side of existence but become one with the spirit.” – The Labours of Hercules by Alice. A Bailey


The Aspects
Now, I will cover a few aspects that will transpire during the New Moon in Capricorn, there are many more aspects that will occur during the New Moon, but I will only cover a few.

The Sun, The Moon, Venus, Saturn, Mercury, and Pluto are conjunct in Capricorn. That’s a lot of Earth energy that’s being triggered within us! The Sun, the Moon, and Venus square Uranus 24 degrees in Aries, Saturn trine Uranus 24 degrees in Aries, Venus, the Sun, and Moon conjuncts Pluto 19 degrees in Capricorn. Finally, Jupiter and Mars are conjunct in Scorpio and sextile Pluto 19 degrees in Capricorn.

The Meaning of the Aspects:

Trust the Path, it is Leading you to Something | The Sun, the Moon, Venus square Uranus 24 degrees in Aries
All of this topped with a square to Uranus signals that there’s an important decision that needs to be made. It suggests that you follow through with your breakthroughs, and keep on the new path toward the mountain of goals.

Personally, I feel that I am walking on new ground. I feel nervous about making fast moves and think that the energy of Capricorn has a lot to do with it. I often have to remind myself to slow down and see the truth in each situation; that I have no reason to rush. I am able to see how far I have come and truly feel gratitude, even if my emotional ghosts visit me from time to time. Feelings of being unlovable, misunderstood, and taken for granted are a ghost of mine. They now ask for me to love them, understand them, and appreciate them for who they are. May you be able to confront your ghosts and remember that your emotions are fleeting. Trust your Path.

Sacrifice is the Only Way Out | Venus, the Sun, and the Moon conjuncts Pluto 19 degrees in Capricorn
Our focus, desires, and emotions that are self-detrimental are now asked to be sacrificed to create a fertile ground. Once this is done, the blueprint will be drawn with a clear mind. The blueprint that is being sketched requires some sort of energy to bring it to life. With the Sun (our creative focus), Venus (desires), and the Moon (emotional instincts), there are desires and old emotions that are needed to be sacrificed and left in order to move forward. Think of it like this, in order to have a productive garden you need water, sun, air, time, a medium, and nutrients. This applies to the future and successfully attaining your goals. You need the proper nutrients to feed your foundation. The nutrients are your old desires and repressed emotions that need to be confronted and released.


“The law of Nature is such that those governed by the spirit of obligatory suites shall flourish while those governed by rights shall perish.” – Governing Business and Relationship by A. Parthasarathy

 

Let the Fire of Passion Burn | Jupiter conjuncts Mars sextile Pluto 19 degrees in Capricorn

Let the passion for your vision push you through this transformation period. This time can be challenging if you are not used to Scorpio or Mars’ intense energy. Some attention and energy are required from you to allow the process of death and rebirth to take a toll. However, the sextile signifies that this phase is easy to push through. It’s almost like this transformation period greets us with open arms saying, “About time! Let’s go already and make something happen!”

Ruler of the Sign | Saturn in Capricorn
With Saturn being in his own sign, Capricorn, and following behind the other planets, it reflects that the changes that are taking place with our foundation are truly being solidified like no other way before. Since Saturn is in his own sign only every 29 ½ years, this is tremendously important for our individual and collective evolution. Saturn being home in his own sign yields some really serious material results. We, humans, love things that are tangible because it helps us feel like we are a part of something that is greater than us. So pay attention to where your mind, desires, emotions, and creative attention takes you. Doing so will give you great results in the long run. Remember, slow and steady is the pace. Enjoy yourself.

How Does this Moon Relate to the Past Moon?
During the Full Moon in Cancer, our emotions are heightened and held with greater weight. It was acting as an antenna for the direction that we need to tread. Now that the moon is in Capricorn, it’s time to walk the path slowly, no matter what is required. Take your time and absorb the truth through the lessons that will inevitably come your way. I promise, in the end, you will be more solid than ever before about your goals and be a steady powerhouse that’ll fuel from your core. No one else can do that for you.

3 Points to Take Away to Help You on the Path 

 

How My Quest for Understanding Astrology and Soils Changed My Life

I would like to share myself with you so that you know a little more about me and what lead me down the path that I am on with Emerald Astrology.

My quest for understanding astrology and all of its intricacies started in January 2014, when I was accepted as a student to attend to Maharishi University of Management (MUM). Then in May 2015, I was blessed to learn about soils after having a revelation that I needed to know more about how the soil functions since I stand upon it every day and depend on its health for my life.

From what I can remember, I always had an insatiable hunger to understand the meaning of my life and why things function the way that they do. During my childhood and teenage years, I grew up in the state of Texas and was greatly influenced by the mystics of my family. I got to understand life through the lens of Christianity, but it seemed to be very limiting to me because the questions that I asked could not be answered and if they were, the answer I received was ‘because God said so.’ That answer was obviously not enough for me, but nonetheless, I enjoyed the feeling I received when I thought there was a merciful God looking out for me. (I was, and still am, a mystic at heart.)

However, I soon discovered that my peers were not feeling the same as I was emotionally when I shared my faith with them. I felt there was something missing to my understanding of Christianity that I did not receive.  The knowledge I had didn’t feel holistic to me because when I shared my heart and knowledge with my peers, I felt this disconnect, pain, sorrow, frustration, and loss of hope. Consequently, I thought if I had a more holistic understanding of Christianity there would be a deeper understanding of why this suffering takes place. There would be some Knowledge and Wisdom to it that would help others deepen their human experience.

I finally succumbed to the fact that I needed to learn more about the meaning of life and why it functioned the way that it did and had to go to college to expand my horizon. I drove 1,000+ miles from the South to the Midwest, with my boyfriend at the time, to MUM, eventually heading straight to what my family called the witch’s craft, astrology. (LOL!) Okay, so I didn’t intentionally find astrology, it came to me.

Being at MUM, I was surrounded by people who came from different walks of life and had a wealth of knowledge from different sources. I was geeking out on everything, or in other words, becoming promiscuous with knowledge. Astrology, however, along with a few other topics like the Goddesses and crystal healing, stuck with me.

Aside from my academic studies, I learned about Vedic Astrology and the Vedic philosophies that came with it. I was confused yet fascinated, learning about foreign deities such as Shiva, Ganesha, Lakshmi, and Kali to name a few, and was also blessed to have dreams of me working with them. It was a miraculous time, and it helped me understand more about who I am and what I am meant to do in this life.

I slowly but surely started to understand astrology and how everything on earth interrelated with the cosmos. Through astrology, I eventually started to see how I was changing and becoming more of myself and why my relationships that I had at the time started to fall apart and change form. I then started to understand a little more about how “God” works and how everything in this life is following some sort of law or pattern. I started to understand that I don’t need a false sense of control of what is going on around me and within me, but that I am a part of this ever-changing scheme of life and only a piece of this mandalic puzzle.

Life was beautiful and unfolding its meaning, yet trying as well because not only was I learning this in-depth science on the side and practicing it with friends, but I was also in school and had a relationship that was falling apart.

While in college, I learned that soil is a living organism that is able to create, sustain and destroy life on its own, and I was blown away when I learned that if I worked with the soil, I, too, can benefit and be healthy. I can grow nutrient-dense foods, feel good, be happy, work with my body physically to keep the soil healthy and spread this wonderful knowledge that I gained. I learned that I can now be an alchemist and a mystic at the same time–a person that holds Knowledge and Wisdom about the meaning of life and continues to see the intricacies at work every day.

To tie this all together, learning about soil and astrology has truly brought more meaning and depth to my life by filling in the missing pieces that were lost during my childhood and teenage years. I eventually discovered esoteric astrology and now am able to take my knowledge to a whole other level. I am honored to share this knowledge with you.

Thank you for taking the time to read about my journey to gain this knowledge. I hope you benefited by reading a little more about me and continue this wonderful journey with me.

If you have any questions or would love to share a comment please don’t hesitate to ask or share. I don’t bite! I would love to chat with you.

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